Feb 3, 2014
Sometimes I run,sometimes I hide, sometimes I'm scared of you...
Hola amigos!Hope Monday is treating you well.Really trying to blog more.Not the mindless repost yadda-yadda you see across your favorite RSS feeds daily,but something meaningful and "thought about".
We mentioned having taken a breather the last few.Ever since deciding rest was for the underfed and the weary, now I'm all about building up and gaining back, or "summoning" traction (kudos to anyone that remembers that from the original website.
Actually, I guess that's what I'll talk about.The original website was poorly laid out, juvenile,and a bit naive in where it was coming from, but it was "REAL". I read the way I wrote before I cared about what people thought, or what tee would or wouldn't sell if I "used big words" and it just seems like it was a lot more interesting.
There's an expression "don't say anything nice if you don't have anything to say at all " wait that's wrong...it's " if you don't have something nice to say, then don't say anything at all". I look at all the people I hold in high regard, the majority of them are radicals,liberals,revolutionaries, people that DID SOMETHING in spite of what obstacles the world and their relations gave,they strived,struggled,and persisted to their goal.
I think the last few years were a part of that process for me.If you ever hear me speak about designs,games,people..it's very blunt and overly direct to the point that it can almost seem for lack of a better word , "mean".It's not that I feel animosity towards certain things or individuals , it's that I really don't have the time or feel the need to sugarcoat things such as an opinion.It's both a strength and a weakness, which I'll expolain shortly.
Looking at the old website, there seemed to be a lack of conventional design elements or branding, but the one thing about the articles and posts was that they were cohesive.You knew who was writing, their mindset,tastes,where everything was coming from.
Reflecting on the past few years, I see that I've developed the brand more and there are improvements, but it's not executed completely : I was holding back.
With the ideas of past and present , there's a need to do more. I ask so much of all of you.To struggle,run blindly,to believe in everything you are and will become if you only move forward.
These things are not musings or wishes, but things we have done together and there was a point where I feel I stopped moving.Fear slowed me and confusion bound me.I was a prisoner.Mediocrity had won.
With the growth and insights I've been afforded over the past few months.I feel it's time to open some doors and move past the familiar once again into the unknown.
The brand comes from a place of adversity,hardship, a NEED that is more than you can bear to ignore.And that need is what has got all of us this far.To look away or turn a blind eye to something that is a part of your very being is unnatural.It can't work.
I had to think about that last expression often over the winter, "it can't work". I had to look in mirrors and away from demons.These demons came from myself.The little voice that says , "maybe I shouldn't" or "what if" , they became "you won't " and " this can't..." for days at a time.
I struggled with every piece of myself to get stronger...and I'm telling you all of this because some of you know how hard it's been.Others just really like stickers and fruit snacks...that's cool too and I love you all the same for it, but some people need to know : this is not easy,this is hard work.And it's not going to stop.Not unless you do.So embrace it.Struggle with me.
If you've read any of the past articles, you'll notice they all echo a similar message, these last ones have actually been a re-telling of the same story a few different ways.It's commentary on the world mixed with a bit of practice.
I've always had good taste in burrito pictures
You see.People always look to champions, people that have successes and they think to themselves, "what did they do to get ____ to happen?" or "why didn't ______ work for me?".There is always the element of timing and luck involved in any endeavor, but at the end of success you'll see more often than not, that person kept trying more than anyone else.They were hungry.
I want you guys to see my failures and struggles more often because I want you to know this is not magic.This doesn't happen overnight.Whatever comes from the brand or myself will be a product of this effort, this hardship,this burden that is also a strength, it will come from hunger.
I'm not writing this for the kids that know the brand and run the streets with us or got kicked out of some events with us...no, I am thankful for you ,and appreciate all that you do, but there are people that have never heard of trying.The ones who think there circumstances are permanent or that the world has to be a certain way because someone told you so.The person that told you that started somewhere too,just think about that.
Your limits are not what people tell you
Fifty years ago, I could have been killed.That's right : KILLED for eating certain places.There are people that die over education,drinking water,and whatever other messed up stuff there is in the world.And I'm here complaining that someone won't answer their email.
I sit here some days and just think about what it's going to take to make this all work.And it's a lot.It's so much that it would scare the average person to read.And I can't stop at just the beginning.So, now is the time to put in work.
The next stuff you'll see will be more in line with this thinking.It's about breaking out of comfort zones and pushing boundaries, and heck, maybe even having some fun while we're at it.
No correlation or anecdote, I've just always liked this one.
I really want to move the world, and it feels like the time is better than ever to do so.So why not try? ...so why not try?
Try Hard,Never Settle,Stay Hungry -h_h-