Oct 11, 2012
Part 2 of the story.
EVO ended, I passed out one more time and had to call it quits.I had a room full of shirts and no energy.I slept for a day and a half and cried the other half.I really felt down.I don't think I had factored in the notion of failure much because I was so focused on doing this for the fans.It's one thing to lose out on something that I wanted for myself, but when it's people that believe in you.It hurts so much more.
I rambled on Twitter and just really barely made it back home to California in one piece.I was a wreck both physically and mentally.My heart had been beat down,and my ego stomped out.It was all bad.
I felt so guilty not being able to do what I wanted.I think I might have made a video about it, but I couldn't really muster up more than more tears at time, it was a lot to deal with.I still wanted to do something for the fans and they were still talking about that Sombrero thing like it was the next coming.
People had memes, gifs, it even made it on some big site called Kotaku.So, I guess it was a big deal to a few people, and that little piece of knowing I entertained some people made me happy.
All of these fans kept asking about making a shirt, but fans always talk about stuff.So, I didn't really think much of it.Just to weed out the talkers, I made this little dare that if 13 of these guys ordered a shirt blind, I would make a shirt out of the event just for them.I didn't believe it to be possible and considering my stance on humanity at the time, I figured the chances were just about as random as me having gotten that Redbull at that moment and making that happen again.
Roughly 7 hours later.I was proven wrong.People bought shirts in doubles,made friends buy shirts,all sorts of stuff to make it happen.I was extremely touched by this because considering my lack of belief in my own community at the time (long story,but it had been a rough month or two).I just was really humbled that these people were willing to trust me enough to give me money BLIND to make something for them.It was the most preorders I had and I was just SHOCKED that it all came together.So, now I had to make a shirt.That's about the point I realized,"Dude, you know you're gonna have to be on a shirt....".Holiest of craps Batman, I was going to have to be part of a shirt.... Wow. How the heck am I going to do this? This is going to be a challenge....
